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All I know are simple facts that I have noticed with myself… 

1. When I’m around you I smile even if there is nothing to smile about because seeing your face brightens even my darkest hours; this has always been true. 
2. I know when I look into your eyes I feel calm, comforted, and safe; I have always loved staring at those beautiful blues. 
3. Every time you wrap you arms around me I hope you will never let me go; even years ago when I had no idea about it. 
4. I find lame reasons to hang out with you, because I love the warm feeling you bring to me; this has always been true.
5. I cannot stay mad at you, ever; I have tried so hard to hate you on many occasions and I, simply, cannot.
6. When you are around I know that nothing will hurt me, because you have always been a sort of guardian to me; I had no idea how true this was until a few months ago.
7. Everyone I talk to about you tells me how obvious it is we are meant to be together and get infuriated when I tell them we aren’t; I really wish we were.
8. Through all of the years I have known you I never properly expressed how I felt because I felt you deserved better than me; I still feel like I don’t deserve you.
9. Even in silence, being by your side makes my day so much better than if I never saw you; I wish I saw you more.
10. I had a nightmare a couple months ago where I died and saw my life flashing before my eyes; my one regret was that I never told you I love you.
11. I have had so many dreams about us that were entirely innocent and cute; I firmly believe these are premonitions and cannot wait for them to come true; one came true yesterday.
12. I feel like I am free to be myself around you and I always have; you are the only person I feel is not judging me and is accepting me.
13. When I find out new things that make us fit together I get overly-excited like a little kid getting candy; they make me feel like we really are meant to be together, even if it sounds stupid.
14. I love RPing with you because in those moments I can feel like we really are together; I wish they were the reality.
15. I kept putting my hand near you and kept the hand closest to you free of items because I hoped you’d hold it; I wish I had the balls to grab your hand myself.
16. I purposely came up with a description for a guy that I felt was impossible to have those traits together so people would leave me alone; a couple months ago I realized you fit every trait I listed.
17. I love Axel and Larxene fanart and making it mostly because I feel it’s us; it’s my way of pretending we’re together without holding my heart out to you.
18. As mean and brutal as this will sound to every one of my exes who may read this; I would gladly go back in time and make it so I never dated anyone if it meant I could be with you.
19. The little things you do make my heart flutter; I feel like a preteen in puppy love being around you.

I could list on and on, truly I could. All I know… is that I absolutely adore you. I may not understand love or comprehend if what I feel is love for you, but I do know for a fact that I adore you and I never want you out of my life. I want to do all I can to make you smile, because your smile is the most gorgeous and adorable smile I have ever seen; even if this means I have to watch you be with someone else… which I have done several times…

I wish you read my tumblr… because I don’t have the guts to tell you this to your face.