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As much as I realize her intents were pure when stating this… it really doesn’t help my scenario, and it ends up sounding a tad hypocritical, because I know if she were in my shoes she would be a wreck too.

It doesn’t help I feel emotions more intensely than everyone I know. When I feel happiness I usually have to forcefully bottle it down or I need to run around and let out excess energy; when I feel angry I need to scream, punch, kick, and rant to like 10 people until it’s all out of my system or I just feel that rage; and when I’m depressed it feels like the entire world decided to sit on top of my chest.

I can physically feel my heart aching, sinking, and just overall crying out in agony. I have tried distractions from creating out, beating shit up in video games, ranting, crying, sleeping, working, cleaning, singing, and so much more but once it is over and I am by myself I still get reminded I’m alone.

I keep trying to be my own best friend, but the remedies I come up with are all temporary.

No matter what I do or where I go or who I talk to I will always be number three.

You.

Everything else.

Then me.